Friday, June 3, 2011

Mommy Where Is My Daddy?

Like any other morning in our home I stood at the kitchen sink somewhere between 1am & 3am washing dishes. It was something that had to be done so the time meant nothing. I peered through the kitchen window to see my son peacefully sitting in his "rock chair" watching cartoons! Yes thats right 1 in the morning & he is awake. He decides when we start our day, I peacefully accepted that there will be a day when he sleeps but for now we enjoy our EARLY mornings! Thinking about what needed to be done that day & how to make our errans, doctor visits, whatever it may be as fun & peaceful for Garnett I was lost in though only be drown back to reality when a little hand pulled on my shorts and said "Mommy where is MY DADDY?" Now I had spent sometime ponding how I would answer this question. And this wasnt the 1st time he had ask but I knew until I felt safe aswering him he would continue to ask. Do I give details, do I tell him the truth or do I "butter it up" for him. As a parent we want to protect our child from anything that could harm or hurt them so aswering this simple question was a challange but I had finally found a way to explain to Garnett just "where" his daddy was. I placed the dish I was washing in the sink, dried my hands, bent down to his level so he would know I was fully connected to him. I looked my son in the face and said "your daddy is in you. He is in your ears, eyes, nose, arms, legs, heart & soul. Your daddy is half of you & mommy is the other half." I thought to myself "ok I answered him" Garnett just peered at me for a moment & with a sweet, blissful voice replied "AWESOME" and ran off!!! Awesome I thought, how could someone at such a young age find that awesome, nevertheless he thought it was awesome & for today he is pleased & at peace with my answer. I know the day will come when Garnett ask again where is daddy is but for today he thinks its awesome that his daddy is in his "ears, eyes, mouth, nose, arrm" No matter where Garnett's father is he will always be in him & he will always be apart of him!!!